and that's the way it is

A Prayer for them
the young
the innocent
all because of a stupid mistake
God, why?
The end
of the beginning.
A Prayer for them.

for is it not what life is?

Masquerade
Paper faces on parade
Hide your face
So the world will never find you

-Phantom of the Opera

Apology

Sometimes I wish I would get desperately sick
So instead of asking how my homework's doing
They'll ask how I am
Instead of seeing what subject i'm working on
They'll see me
Instead of checking my grades
They'll check up on me
But all this "me"
sounds so self-centered
And it is.
because this is just another teenage rant,
protesting about how we feel we're pushed too much
When all they want, is for us to be happy later
to have no regrets, to be successful
it's only a short part of our lives
such a small price to pay
but maybe it's different for others
and it's just me, being dramatic
but still. i want to tell them
I'm sorry.

Convention Shmention

a spencerian sonnet...by me =D

I’m so sick of having to learn grammar
I have learned enough, it’s a waste of time
It’s been pound in for years like a hammer
Pounded so much I can hear my head chime

spelling no good too, me hate like dirt grime
it no let me use words like “awesomer”
it like mr. grammar’s partner-in-crime
hampering me mind like too tight sweater

ms punctuation is like a fetter
commas and periods too hard to use
natural pauses be looking better
than little black dots that to me confuse

english convention put me head in smog
i go improve english and read teen blog

because it's easier to write this than to write happy

so the font was too small on everyone else's screen...so it's bigger =P





So I found it was kinda hard
To write everything in poetry,
but of course, I probably
should have anticipated that

so life today. like everyday.
But it’s getting harder
as the years go by
to stop being so cold, to stop becoming
tempramental—and blunt.

I used to be a Blue person
But looking at the world, the deceit
The lies, the Using, the hidden blades
Guess it makes you lose faith in people

That’s depressing, but
Like always
Everything will look ok tomorrow

Guess I sound
either pretty emo or
pretty stupid
right about now

there’s randomness in the lines
in the format, in the structure
no rhyme, no meter
No sense
just plain blank verse

But I guess, that’s life

On Growing Up

Here's a prayer I found that can apply to growing up from a teen to an adult...but it's how I feel so it's posted ^^


As I lay me down to sleep
I give the Lord my soul to keep
Hear the words of this my prayer
Let me know Lord that you are there
My heart is troubled, Life is rough
Confusing is everywhere and it’s real tough
So as I lay me down to sleep
Heal my heart of these woes so deep
Hold me in your arms real tight
And flood me with your gracious light
Help me with the words of prayer
To get this right, and know you care
For all that I’ve done wrong in life
Forgive me Lord for all caused strife
Through the blood of Jesus that was shed for me
Forgive me Lord, light me a path to see
Show me that I’m not alone as I walk
And forgive all doubt that to myself I talk
Jesus Lord, Oh Jesus died for me
Nailed to a cross at Calvary
My heart is beat battered and worn
And the scars of life have through me torn
I’m terrified of great loss in my mind
Help me Lord for solace and peace to find
In the name of Jesus I ask of thee
Oh Lord, my God, dear Father, hear me

Amen